Adulthood

So, the question is often posed: when did you know you were an adult? Answer: today. Today I realized that when you are an adult you are often confused, but you also realize that there is very little you can do to eliminate or ignore confusion, you just live with it. The only thing I know for sure is that I don't know.

Basically we have to make grand life decisions. We don't love Midland. It's just a town. It's not bad, but it's nothing to be excited about. There are some good things though, like Gabe likes his school, there are activities for kids (if you have money, luckily we have enough for some options), and we figure over the course of the year we will start to meet people which always makes a place feel better. That being said, neither of us can imagine wanting to stay in Midland long term.

We have now visited Frankenmuth twice and we like it. But it's a small town, albeit cool, which may have fewer offerings. We are still trying to sort all that out. The thing Frankenmuth has over Midland, is that it is interesting. Just walking down the street is entertaining. Also, the parks are cleaner (the whole town is neat as a pin). We have no way to know with absolute certainty whether or not we would want to live there longer than a few years, but we think it's more likely than Midland. But do we move down there, only to move yet again soon, or do we think it will last longer. The other consideration is that the only nearby art therapist I can find is down near Flint, and if I was to do my clinicals with her, Frankemuth would make for a shorter commute.

Also, we know some of our problem with Midland is that we don't like our house and landlord that much. Would it be better if we had our own place? I think it would be, but I still have trouble envisioning life here long term. We did see our dream starter home today, but it's so darn cute it won't stay on the market long and we don't have enough for a down payment right now. We really need to wait until the summer.

We don't know how to decide, and we kind of wish we didn't have to, but eventually, a decision will have to be made. At least we have some time, but answering these questions isn't likely to get any easier. If anything, the more time Gabe spends in school and we spend in church, the harder it will be to decide what is really best for all of us.

Summary: adulthood equals confusion. Grr.